I AM 34 and a diabetic. My parents have never thought of finding me a guy because of my illness. I get depressed and have tried suicide but I do not want to leave my nephew or my parents either. I cry all the time.
I met a guy whom I fell for. He can be sweet – and yet he can also inject poison into me till I cry and cry. But I can’t seem to leave him because I have no one else. I am beautiful but guys are just interested in having sex with me and that makes me feel like I am not good enough to be with. I have lost my faith in God. I am trying to regain it but I have been unsuccessful.
I feel sad when I see couples and married people as I know I will never have all that. I can’t talk to my siblings because they think I am sad over nothing. I hate myself so much. I hate my life and I hate God. I want to die and yet I can’t, it’s so unfair.
Living Dead
Diabetes can be controlled through diet and medication. Many diabetics lead normal lives, get married and have children. So why do you allow your illness to destroy your chance at love and happiness?
You also seem to be emotionally fragile, and you believe that men only want you because you are physically attractive. But why do you feel that you are not good enough to be loved and cherished? Why have you lost faith in God? You suspect that your boyfriend is confused about his love for you but perhaps it is you who are confused?
You should seek medical counselling to understand the reasons for your depression and suicidal tendencies. Your mood swings and dark feelings are not normal.
You should be happy, contented and fulfilled because you are loved. Yet in your warbled mind, you believe that nobody can love you.
You must learn to love yourself or you will never trust that someone will love you for yourself. Seek religious enlightenment too for surely God has never forsaken you.
It’s your own self-doubts playing havoc with your emotions. Be brave enough to look for the truth, do not be constantly deceived by your own thoughts and suspicions.
Look into the mirror and tell the beautiful girl with heart and soul, that she is more than just a pretty face. Why would anyone want to hurt her, make her cry, fill her heart with poison?
Only you can help this girl. Love her, never harm her by wanting to take her life. She is you.
I met a guy whom I fell for. He can be sweet – and yet he can also inject poison into me till I cry and cry. But I can’t seem to leave him because I have no one else. I am beautiful but guys are just interested in having sex with me and that makes me feel like I am not good enough to be with. I have lost my faith in God. I am trying to regain it but I have been unsuccessful.
I feel sad when I see couples and married people as I know I will never have all that. I can’t talk to my siblings because they think I am sad over nothing. I hate myself so much. I hate my life and I hate God. I want to die and yet I can’t, it’s so unfair.
Living Dead
Diabetes can be controlled through diet and medication. Many diabetics lead normal lives, get married and have children. So why do you allow your illness to destroy your chance at love and happiness?
You also seem to be emotionally fragile, and you believe that men only want you because you are physically attractive. But why do you feel that you are not good enough to be loved and cherished? Why have you lost faith in God? You suspect that your boyfriend is confused about his love for you but perhaps it is you who are confused?
You should seek medical counselling to understand the reasons for your depression and suicidal tendencies. Your mood swings and dark feelings are not normal.
You should be happy, contented and fulfilled because you are loved. Yet in your warbled mind, you believe that nobody can love you.
You must learn to love yourself or you will never trust that someone will love you for yourself. Seek religious enlightenment too for surely God has never forsaken you.
It’s your own self-doubts playing havoc with your emotions. Be brave enough to look for the truth, do not be constantly deceived by your own thoughts and suspicions.
Look into the mirror and tell the beautiful girl with heart and soul, that she is more than just a pretty face. Why would anyone want to hurt her, make her cry, fill her heart with poison?
Only you can help this girl. Love her, never harm her by wanting to take her life. She is you.
